Sept. 21st, 2022.
As the title says, life is shocking. Our granddaughter has been doing things that would make a sailor blush. She is 11 years old, and has a better vocabulary then I do.
The things she can come up with is shocking. I watch her. She is very intelligent. She is a great actor, she likes to dance, she enjoys cooking. She loves to mess with make up. She can put it on like a pro. She looks very attractive. She is a fabulous child. But there have been things she does that left us all so dumbfounded, that we just stared at each other for quite a while. I mean (WOW).
It’s sad that she feels she has to do these things. She thinks it’s innocent. But far from it. It’s sad because she is so smart. The problem here is, she has been mistreated by her father. Whom she no longer sees. Her mom has to work a lot to keep a roof over their heads. So she is a lone most of the time. Don’t get me wrong, when she’s not at home, she is here with me and papaw. So she is being watched. But she retreats to her room, and gets on her phone . We assume she’s playing games or watching YouTube. But oh my goodness she was doing far worse than that.
I will not go into details, but what she had been doing was so wrong. Her mother went through her phone and found out all this stuff. The biggest mistake that was made, was not going through it sooner. Now we have to deal with the fall out. It’s so sad that this is what comes of a bad father and a mom so busy with work, that no one noticed.
The fact remains, it was really predictable. If we had been paying more attention , we would have known more.
Also to, mental illness runs in my family. I’m bipolar. My daughter is bipolar, has ADHD, and anxiety. So we figure out granddaughter has issues too.
So it’s predictable that she does odd things. She always saying she’s depressed. Or she says things about suicide. I’m always watching her or trying to talk to her about her issues. Sometimes she talks sometimes she doesn’t. But I guess we weren’t watching close enough to know what she was really doing. Shame on us.
I feel like not such a good grandma, my daughter feels like crap and not a good mom. We all feel responsible for how she is. If it was so predictable , why didn’t we see it coming or why didn’t we check her phone sooner ? Because we are imperfect people that don’t stop and think. That whole problem with most everyone, they don’t stop and think. Predictable,, right ?
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