Feeling Depressed!!!

Oct. 12th,2021.

I’m feeling Depressed today. I can’t say why. I just feel low. It’s fall, sometimes I get depressed in the fall. I can’t figure out why. Unless it’s because everything is dying off. Everything looks so ugly when it’s just the sticks on the trees.

When there is no leaves , it looks bare. The grass dies, everything green goes away.. There’s nothing pretty to look at.

It’s like the world closes it’s door to beauty. Then winter comes on and it gets worse. Things get muddy, it’s cold and you can’t go outside. Sometimes it snows , and I don’t like the snow because snow can be dangerous. It makes things slick. People can have accidents. I just don’t like it.

Anyway I feel sad and I hate it. I don’t want to do anything. I just want to sleep. Sleep takes me away from thinking. It’s my escape from how I feel. I don’t have the energy to do anything. Sometimes just getting up out of a chair is too much for me. That’s what depression does, it makes you feel so tired and useless. I sometimes don’t feel loved or worthy of anyone. I just don’t have anything to say to people.

People don’t know what to say to me. There’s nothing they can say. Depression is something that just takes time to go away. It’s like any other illness. You have to just ride it out. But it hurts like crazy. Those who suffer know what I mean. Depression is very lonely.

I will write later !!!