I miss you Dad!!!

Sept. 8th,2021.

You’ve been gone over 4 years now. I really miss you. I still love you like you were here.

I wish you had never been with that woman. She was bad news from the start. You thought the world rose and set in her. She turned out to be what we thought she was , a gold digger. She used all your money and used you up , then when she was tired of you she got rid of you. When she didn’t want to take care of you anymore she killed you.

I know she smothered you with a pillow, after keeping you drugged up with morphine. All she could do was dance around waiting for you to die. I watched her. I never seen someone in such a good mood the way she was when she thought you were dying.

She said you were supposed to die that weekend. She was so surprised when you didn’t. I remember she kept saying ,that she couldn’t believe you were still alive. I looked at her so strangely. I thought , you’re suppose to love my dad, why are in hurry for him to die. I asked her if she would miss you , she said she would , but that she knew you needed to go.

I never could understand someone that would dance around the house and sing , like she could hardly wait for you to die. She never seemed sad , the way a person would if they were losing someone they loved. I saw right through her. She thought I was stupid. She thought because I had problems with depression ,that I couldn’t see how she really was. But I saw it. I didn’t let her know it, but I saw how she was acting. Like a woman that could hardly wait till you were gone.

When you didn’t die when she thought you should ,she got angry. She said she would tell us kids when it was getting close for you to die. She didn’t call us until after you were gone. When I got to her house and I saw you, I knew she had done something to you. You looked like you had been smothered with a pillow. The look on your face was that of surprise. You were looking straight up at the ceiling and you looked like you just couldn’t believe what she had done. I will never forget that look on your face. I had to close your eyes because she didn’t. Shes been with enough people that’s died , that I couldn’t believe she wouldn’t close your eyes. When I asked her about it she said that she just flew out of the room when you died. You left the room real quick, because you knew you had just killed him. With all the people you had been with that died , I don’t believe that you were that disturbed to see my dad die. After all, that’s what you did , was take care of sick people. So why should it shock you to see him go. It shocked you, because you killed him. We all know that you killed our dad. We just couldn’t prove it. You had him imbalmed as soon as he got to the funeral home. We couldn’t do anything , because dad made you powered of attorney. But we know what you did.

Then you wouldn’t help pay for his funeral, knowing that we were having a hard time with it. What kind of a person that loves someone won’t help bury her beloved ? You didn’t, because your a no account woman.

I watched you with my dad. You didn’t care about him , just his money and what you could get from him. You acted sick the whole time you were with him. You were on oxygen. You walked with a cane. But the sicker my dad got , the better you got. No more oxygen, no more cane. What was up with that? It was all an act so you could take everything from my dad. I’m just sorry he couldn’t see it.

You kept us kids away from him the best you could. We weren’t even allowed at the hospital while he was in there. You didn’t want us there, because you knew we would ask questions. I never got to see dad when you said he was so sick, because you wouldn’t allow us there. Why was that? I know why, because you didn’t want us knowing anything about our dad. What a vicious woman you were. You would never let dad come visit us, you always kept him to yourself, so you could control him. I wish dad would have believed us when we were trying to tell him that. But you kept him so messed up , he didn’t know what was going on. You wouldn’t give him his medicines right. I believe half the time you never gave them to him at all , and when you did it was the wrong dosage. You kept him right were you wanted him, not right in the head.

I remember being at your house and dad never seemed himself. But when he had to spend time in the nursing home, you weren’t there very much. That was the best dad had ever been. He was getting his medicine on time and in the right dosage , and he was the dad I remember. He gets back to you and it starts all over again. We weren’t stupid , we knew you were messing with him and his drugs, but we couldn’t prove anything.

But you will pay for what you’ve done. God will take care of you , and I will be so glad when he does. You are a worthless woman that only deserves payback. I will be glad when you get it. I can’t stand you Doris. I’m waiting for the day you die , so you can’t hurt anyone else.

I will write later!!!